CAUTION: FAIRY WITH ATTITUDE

What if is the thing you say when it’s too late…. But it is also the thing you say when you hope, when you look back, when something happens that you did’nt expect.  When someone shows up, leave, tell you something that is’nt right. You say what if when you don’t know, when your taken by suprise….

But….what if the heart still belive in something that is not there and as not been for a while?? what if then???

It’s you. it’s because of «you and me» that I belive. It’s about the music being too loud that I can’t hear you wisper. It’s all that you don’t say that I know. It’s  the way you touched me that makes me  remember. The fact that even if…

It is about «the way you remind me» that I know myself.

Why is it that even when I think were close you disaper ?  Why is it that the time never matter, exist or change anything about «the space between»  us?

The thing is you never know with relationships… you don’t know if it’s going to last, you don’t know if the person is worthy of your trust. If she happen to be, you still don’t know if it’s the right one for you.

The fact is that to find out, to finally get an answer for all the questions you may have since the first moment you lay eyes on someone, the only choice you got is to dive in. You’ve got to put yourself out there, give a chance, take a risk on that little thing call faith.

Before all the butterflies, the dreams and way before « They lived happily ever after » you have to try, get out! YOU NEVER KNOW when Prince Charming’s gonna show up! I had a friend who whould always get dolled up only to put a fingher outside…. That’s not what I mean at all, but just to remember that sometimes it’s when you least expect something that it happens!! Smile, be happy and kind. 

You never know, you can hope or pretend, lie to yourself about getting exactly what you want in life. The fact remains, you can never be certain or sure that your making the right choice for your future if you don’t check out all the possibilities

                                                                    BUT Even when it’s bad, at the end of a relationship, when it hurts, something good comes out of it, not that hurting is great but if it’s bad enough you might find some strength that you didn’t know exited. THE POWER TO GET BACK ON YOU FEET. 

I still have it, you know, the Christmas spirit! Not like they didn’t try to reap me out of it with all the drama and everything. I still want to decorate Christmas trees; I still want to hang lights around the house and little funny characters everywhere!!!  Some part of me is still a kid about those things. I want the magic again enough with all the drama. But the thing is, holidays come with traditions and the only ones I know about is that someone is always picking a fight or something.  So I’m not really closing the door on celebrations but for a while I guest that is going to be like this year. Me sitting on a beach drinking my self out just to forget. I still had fun but it was in a really weird kind of way. Maybe I should recreate some kind of family for my self that way instead of being thrown in with « wacky» people I will choose with whom I want to be with. So it could be a mix of family ( I got some of them a least) and friends who appriciate all this… Shouldn’t this be THE way?….I mean spending important time of the year together with the people that respect you and all??